{"id":145,"date":"2018-04-18T00:01:47","date_gmt":"2018-04-18T00:01:47","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/english.illinoisstate.edu\/euphemism\/13-2\/?page_id=145"},"modified":"2018-09-15T20:56:03","modified_gmt":"2018-09-15T20:56:03","slug":"la-lune","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/13-2\/la-lune\/","title":{"rendered":"la lune"},"content":{"rendered":"
Julia Dieter<\/a> (Bio)<\/a><\/h5>\n

It seems the moon has fallen out of
\nThis sky,
\nBlack as crow feathers and twice as thick.
\nIt seems the earth is holding her breath, as if
\nShe could suspend on air the intentions of
\nHer dreamless nights but
\n<\/span>I can feel her trembling I can
\n<\/span>Feel her fog creeping across and under my
\n<\/span>Bare feet but
\n<\/span>I trust I am not sinking.<\/span><\/p>\n

I till the ground I cannot see with anything
\nSave for the nerves beneath sour skin
\n<\/span>All over bones I am hesitant to call my own and
\n<\/span>I am immersed in what I have unearthed as if
\n<\/span>I may blindly recognize some inkling of reason but
\n<\/span>My moon has abandoned me.<\/span><\/p>\n

I am shrouded in endless death I am
\nAn exercise on entertaining the fleeting thought that
\n<\/span>Crazy can coexist with silence and
\n<\/span>Beneath me she is still trembling<\/span><\/p>\n

Nervous and fully conscious and obsessed
\nWith her own mortality
\n<\/span>As I am but she does not know.<\/span><\/p>\n

Certain of her own shortcomings she knows
\n<\/span>Soon
\n<\/span>She will shoot, barreling headfirst headlong heading out
\n<\/span>Of sight and she will drag us
\n<\/span>Unwilling, all of us,
\n<\/span>She will drag us to highways that stop our breath completely
\n<\/span>Sometimes<\/span><\/p>\n

I think I love so deeply I kill the blooming buds I hold so reverently
\nSqueezing essence into my dirty palms so
\nI may know beauty too
\nI kill every seed I bury with the fervor of the faith I place in
\nIts ability to heal the earth and my head along with her.<\/p>\n

I am on my knees in her now
\nDesperately running aching fingers over every piece of her I can get my hands on
\nShe doesn\u2019t mind.
\nShe told me so.<\/p>\n

I am in the clay now
\nIf I am covered
\n<\/span>Maybe
\nI can be remade<\/p>\n

I am letting her drink now
\nMy fingernails have fallen off
\nI am watering her with the fount erupting from
\nThe hands clasped against my chest<\/p>\n

I speak a prayer but it turns blue on my lips
\nUnheard
\nUnheeded<\/p>\n

There are no stars left<\/p>\n

I cannot move my hands but they move independently and they dig
\nEver deeper
\nThere are roots on my wrists now
\n<\/span>Putting pressure on wounds too jagged to heal<\/p>\n

In the pitch I can see night pour my mud over me
\nI do not panic.<\/span><\/p>\n

I can see the moon now.<\/p>\n

I can see the moon.
\nshe is smiling at me.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Julia Dieter (Bio) It seems the moon has fallen out of This sky, Black as crow feathers and twice as thick. It seems the earth is holding her breath, as if She could suspend on air the intentions of Her dreamless nights but I can feel her trembling I can Feel her fog creeping across Read More<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":17,"featured_media":0,"parent":0,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"template-full-width.php","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-145","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/13-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/145","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/13-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/13-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/13-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/17"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/13-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=145"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/13-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/145\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":736,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/13-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/145\/revisions\/736"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/13-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=145"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}