as we\u2019re sitting in an opium den
\ni\u2019m calculating every better version of myself i could be
\nstarting tomorrow<\/p>\n
i slide down the balding upholstery of my chaise lounge
\nmelting into the once-plush carpeting<\/p>\n
your vowels and consonants are incoherent
\nsliced to their most basic components
\nin the ticker tape that continuously runs through my mind<\/p>\n
i can\u2019t see you through the haze and im sorry
\ni\u2019ll blindly stumble through the rest of our existence<\/p>\n
i dreamt they covered my body in electrodes
\nto jolt my consciousness to the same plane
\nas those i\u2019m surrounded by<\/p>\n
the stale air accompanied by the drawn shades makes me nauseous
\ni take another sip of my sugared absinthe<\/p>\n
someday
\ni won\u2019t feel like i\u2019m here
\ni won\u2019t feel like i\u2019m anywhere<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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