i\u00a0honestly can\u2019t remember if\u00a0i\u00a0had a\u00a0\u00a0
lot of friends growing up.\u00a0i\u00a0just found\u00a0\u00a0
all my old yearbooks with everyone\u2019s\u00a0
faces in them &\u00a0i\u00a0don\u2019t even remember\u00a0\u00a0
talking to half of these people.\u00a0
i\u00a0rode the school bus to school\u00a0everyday\u00a0&\u00a0i\u00a0\u00a0
was the only kid in my grade on the whole bus.\u00a0
one time a lot of the kids were on the bus in the morning but weren\u2019t on it
on the\u00a0
way home.\u00a0i\u00a0learned that they were all\u00a0
at a party, or at least\u00a0i\u00a0think\u00a0
that\u2019s how the story went.\u00a0
cheap wine & wear a lot of\u00a0\u00a0
expensive clothes to make up\u00a0\u00a0
for it. have you ever opened\u00a0\u00a0
your eyes in the morning & the\u00a0
very first thought you have is\u00a0\u00a0
what his hair smelled like while\u00a0\u00a0
he was sleeping.\u00a0i\u00a0find it weird now\u00a0\u00a0
that\u00a0i\u2019m\u00a0an adult & still have these\u00a0\u00a0
feelings of being lonely. the word\u00a0\u00a0
itself rolls off the\u00a0tounge\u00a0but gets\u00a0\u00a0
caught in your teeth on the second L.\u00a0
so\u00a0i\u00a0guess we just don\u2019t talk about\u00a0
it enough & maybe if we did our mouths\u00a0\u00a0
would be able to move enough to\u00a0\u00a0
choke it out.\u00a0i\u00a0bet you\u2019re listening\u00a0
to this by yourself right now.\u00a0\u00a0
i\u00a0bet you\u2019re trying to really immerse\u00a0\u00a0
yourself in the words but the\u00a0\u00a0
music is too loud.\u00a0i\u00a0bet you\u2019re\u00a0\u00a0
trying so hard to comprehend\u00a0\u00a0
what\u00a0i\u2019m\u00a0saying right now &\u00a0i\u00a0\u00a0
bet that some of you actually\u00a0\u00a0
care &\u00a0i\u00a0bet that some of you don\u2019t\u00a0\u00a0
but if you\u00a0wanna\u00a0know what lonely feels like\u00a0
try dancing in the snow with no coat on try\u00a0
making reservations for one try\u00a0
singing both parts to\u00a0i\u2019ve\u00a0had the time of my life try\u00a0\u00a0
having leftover spaghetti\u00a0cuz\u00a0you made the whole fucking box hoping he
someone anyone would show up try waking up every morning with no
one\u00a0\u00a0
absolutely fucking positively no one next to you but\u00a0\u00a0
maybe everyone is just getting tired of me\u00a0
maybe everyone is just getting bored\u00a0\u00a0
maybe everyone is falling asleep\u00a0\u00a0
&\u00a0
maybe just maybe\u00a0\u00a0
everyone is being\u00a0\u00a0
ignored\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
by Nick Roberts i\u00a0honestly can\u2019t remember if\u00a0i\u00a0had a\u00a0\u00a0lot of friends growing up.\u00a0i\u00a0just found\u00a0\u00a0all my old yearbooks with everyone\u2019s\u00a0faces in them &\u00a0i\u00a0don\u2019t even remember\u00a0\u00a0talking to half of these people.\u00a0i\u00a0rode the school bus to school\u00a0everyday\u00a0&\u00a0i\u00a0\u00a0was the only kid in my grade on the whole bus.\u00a0one time a lot of the kids were on the bus in the… <\/p>\n