ADHD

ADHD 
 
I wanted to have a word with you. 
 
It was like a bad movie, made by one of those auteurs; 
Or, I forget the term 
that I mean to say -- it’s the opposite of that, 
      like a moon to a sun. 
      Anyway, with mind skipping 
like celluloid, 
 
I wanted to focus but couldn’t  
Concentrate 
 
But I made a poem as the night played  
     a trick 
on my mind, and so unethically 
bound 
 
Every word,  
which was chopped up into almost  
                      nothing 
and wanting to turn the  
                      leaf
 
                                 (to leaf through or pull through 
                                   or whatever I meant to say
                           then) 
                      to cover up the meaning of the word,  
to flow down a river as smooth as a glass of wine, 
    a Cava 
from some European winery that I cannot pronounce 
even though I idolize the place like a personification 
 
And I 
       Swerved 
to avoid the misunderstanding, did 
what I could  
to produce 
                                                           Noise. 
 
Perhaps this is a new thought,  
     but only to you. 
Perhaps  
instead, this is an old thought,  
 
For a word I had with you  
was steeped in blue, 
and as soon as I had it  
it bid adieu  
to me, but sadly not you.