Why..?

Why did I rely on you so heavily…?

Why did I become a shadow of my own body?

Why did I fall for your foolish ways…?

Your foul plays…

Why did I make a mockery of myself…?

By thinking you’d catch me if I fall

Why did I hold my hand out?

Thinking you’d pick me back up

Why do I break with the thought of you on my mind?

You’re in my skin

Underneath my layers of skin

I can’t get you out

I’m not myself

You drained me of my own identity and

Injected self-doubt into my veins and body

Left me questioning my own sanity

Walking around so aimlessly

At war with my own body every day

Trying to remove your heavy words off my skin

My mental state has been shaken to its core

I’ve fallen to floor

I don’t even know who I am anymore