{"id":273,"date":"2020-11-18T01:22:30","date_gmt":"2020-11-18T01:22:30","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/english.illinoisstate.edu\/euphemism\/16-1\/?page_id=273"},"modified":"2020-11-20T02:18:17","modified_gmt":"2020-11-20T02:18:17","slug":"there-are-ghosts-here","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-1\/poetry\/there-are-ghosts-here\/","title":{"rendered":"There are ghosts here"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

There are ghosts here<\/strong> <\/p>\n\n\n\n

There are ghosts in my house 
and they won\u2019t let me leave 
I got comfortable here 
I made my bed here 
I fell asleep here 
I made love here 
I live here <\/p>\n\n\n\n

They coddle and hold me 
tell me that I am beautiful 
tell me that I am perfect  
tell me that I am heavenly 
tell me that I am whole 
they tell me that I am okay as I am 
that I don\u2019t have 
to change 
to get better 
to grow <\/p>\n\n\n\n

it\u2019s warmer in places that you grew up in <\/p>\n\n\n\n

The spirits guide me to safety 
but they cut out the seatbelts and ripped out the brakes  
they say that I just need faith 
to stay alive and I believe them 
that I only needed to trust and that would keep me from busting my head
through the fragile glass 
but it didn\u2019t <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I don\u2019t blame the faith 
I blame the spectors that told me it was the only way 
They fed me full of reliance 
and codependency and told me it was better like this 
They told me that I had to  
or that I didn\u2019t really believe 
They tricked me into thinking that  
I didn\u2019t have a choice 
They made me believe that I was wrong 
that they knew best 
that they knew more 
that they were the experts on the world but they\u2019re the ones who are dead. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\nThere are ghosts here  There are ghosts in my house and they won\u2019t let me leave I got comfortable here I made my bed here I fell asleep here I made love here I live here  They coddle and hold me tell me that I am beautiful tell me that…\n<\/div>\n
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