{"id":285,"date":"2020-11-18T01:24:49","date_gmt":"2020-11-18T01:24:49","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/english.illinoisstate.edu\/euphemism\/16-1\/?page_id=285"},"modified":"2020-11-20T02:32:48","modified_gmt":"2020-11-20T02:32:48","slug":"why","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-1\/poetry\/why\/","title":{"rendered":"Why..?"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Why did I rely on you so heavily&#8230;? <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Why did I become a shadow of my own body?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Why did I fall for your foolish ways&#8230;? <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Your foul plays&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Why did I make a mockery of myself&#8230;? <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">By thinking you\u2019d catch me if I fall<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Why did I hold my hand out?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"> Thinking you\u2019d pick me back up<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Why do I break with the thought of you on my mind?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"> You\u2019re in my skin <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Underneath my layers of skin <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I can\u2019t get you out<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"> I\u2019m not myself <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">You drained me of my own identity and <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Injected self-doubt into my veins and body<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Left me questioning my own sanity <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Walking around so aimlessly <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">At war with my own body every day <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Trying to remove your heavy words off my skin<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">My mental state has been shaken to its core <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I\u2019ve fallen to floor <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I don\u2019t even know who I am anymore<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<div class=\"entry-summary\">\nWhy did I rely on you so heavily&#8230;? Why did I become a shadow of my own body? Why did I fall for your foolish ways&#8230;? Your foul plays&#8230; Why did I make a mockery of myself&#8230;? By thinking you\u2019d&hellip;\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"link-more\"><a href=\"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-1\/poetry\/why\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &ldquo;Why..?&rdquo;<\/span>&hellip;<\/a><\/div>\n","protected":false},"author":33,"featured_media":0,"parent":5,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"templates\/no-intro.php","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-285","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry","entry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/285","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/33"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=285"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/285\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":399,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/285\/revisions\/399"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/5"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=285"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}