I sit in my chair

Elora

 

i sit in my chair. 

i sit, i sit, i sit, but i can’t focus  

i stare at my screen until my homework rots out my eyes  

NONE of it gets done 

focus i can’t FOCUS 

i’m all alone but all i can think about is  

how fucking uncomfortable i am in my body and  

– people must look at me and know i’ve gained weight i know they do – 

fuck i’m so heavy so heavy so heavy  

– they know you’ve done nothing all day, they know how useless you are they know –  

i need to run a thousand miles, do a thousand sit ups  

that’s what i need (yes yes!) that’s what i need  

BUT I CAN’T EVEN FIND THE MOTIVATION TO GET UP OFF MY CHAIR  

this chair i need to sit in 

this homework i need to do 

this chair i sit in to do my homework 

(when will the world go back to normal?) 

i sit in my chair.