Kallias Caddel
It’s not just boys.
Ha.
That’s the first time I’ve ever written that out.
Samantha.
That was her name,
The first girl that I ever loved.
Not the first girl that I ever kissed.
No, there had been many, years before we met.
She was the only girl that knew how I felt.
She didn’t balk from me.
She didn’t even know that she was the first.
The only one.
I never told her.
I never will.
I haven’t even told myself.
My family would disown me.
I should disown me.
When will it be okay?
When will I be able to look in the mirror and say,
“Yep, i’m gay.”
I love boys.
I love girls.
I love everyone, everything,
Except myself.