{"id":299,"date":"2021-04-13T16:04:20","date_gmt":"2021-04-13T16:04:20","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/english.illinoisstate.edu\/euphemism\/16-2\/?page_id=299"},"modified":"2021-04-28T21:29:25","modified_gmt":"2021-04-28T21:29:25","slug":"nothing","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/nothing\/","title":{"rendered":"nothing"},"content":{"rendered":"\r\n<h5 class=\"wp-block-heading\"><span style=\"font-size: 12pt\"><strong>Natalie Swanson<\/strong><\/span><\/h5>\r\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">so i sat on the train at 4:42 p.m.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">the sunset flames licking my flushed cheeks<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">and i remember how lovely it felt to be alive<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">to be able to count the passengers in and out<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">who were all heading home and with destination,<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">but i was out and i was so alone.<\/p>\r\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">i want to be noticed but it also makes me<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">uncomfortable.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">did they notice me?<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">was i remembered?<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">a selfish thought but the desire to be an<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">aura never disappears from me<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">maybe it\u2019s not being alive that i enjoy<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">it\u2019s the complexity of perhaps having too much<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">life in a vessel not fit.<\/p>\r\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">sometimes i wonder if i\u2019m the undead<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">but that\u2019s just something that floods my head<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">i\u2019m a schr\u00f6dinger\u2019s cat in the train<\/p>\r\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">the minute i step out i am back to<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">nothing.<\/p>\r\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">it\u2019s 4:45 p.m.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">someone brushes past my shoulder and doesn\u2019t<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">even turn.<\/p>\r\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">that\u2019s how i know it to be true.<\/p>\r\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Natalie Swanson &nbsp; so i sat on the train at 4:42 p.m. the sunset flames licking my flushed cheeks and i remember how lovely it felt to be alive to be able to count the passengers in and out who were all heading home and with destination, but i was out and i was so&hellip; <a class=\"continue\" href=\"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/nothing\/\">Continue Reading nothing<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":45,"featured_media":0,"parent":0,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-299","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/299","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/45"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=299"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/299\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":863,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/299\/revisions\/863"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=299"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}