{"id":466,"date":"2021-04-14T21:40:39","date_gmt":"2021-04-14T21:40:39","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/english.illinoisstate.edu\/euphemism\/16-2\/?page_id=466"},"modified":"2021-04-28T21:51:18","modified_gmt":"2021-04-28T21:51:18","slug":"starlings-wing","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/starlings-wing\/","title":{"rendered":"Starling&#8217;s wing"},"content":{"rendered":"\r\n<h5 class=\"wp-block-heading\"><strong><span style=\"font-size: 12pt\">Elora<\/span><\/strong><\/h5>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">&nbsp;<\/p>\r\n<p>Day by day,\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I watch the wallows beneath my\u00a0eyes\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">grow deeper and deeper &#8211; sallow and\u00a0dark\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">like the purple underbelly of a starling&#8217;s wing.\u00a0<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Something&#8217;s starving inside me.\u00a0<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Not my belly,\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">but something much more difficult to fill &#8211;\u00a0<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">and\u00a0that&#8217;s\u00a0okay for me.\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">That&#8217;s okay\u00a0because\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">it&#8217;s\u00a0much easier to run to the\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">slaughterhouse of my self-hatred\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">than to sit through the harrow of\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">feeling myself drain\u00a0empty\u00a0<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">again\u00a0and again and\u00a0<em>again<\/em>.\u00a0<\/p>\r\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I&#8217;ve learned the hard\u00a0way\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">that dreams\u00a0don&#8217;t\u00a0pack on fat like bodies do,\u00a0<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">and\u00a0it&#8217;s\u00a0starting to take its toll.\u00a0<\/p>\r\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Elora &nbsp; Day by day,\u00a0\u00a0 I watch the wallows beneath my\u00a0eyes\u00a0\u00a0 grow deeper and deeper &#8211; sallow and\u00a0dark\u00a0\u00a0 like the purple underbelly of a starling&#8217;s wing.\u00a0 Something&#8217;s starving inside me.\u00a0 Not my belly,\u00a0\u00a0 but something much more difficult to fill &#8211;\u00a0 and\u00a0that&#8217;s\u00a0okay for me.\u00a0\u00a0 That&#8217;s okay\u00a0because\u00a0\u00a0 it&#8217;s\u00a0much easier to run to the\u00a0\u00a0 slaughterhouse of my&hellip; <a class=\"continue\" href=\"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/starlings-wing\/\">Continue Reading Starling&#8217;s wing<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":0,"parent":0,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-466","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/466","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=466"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/466\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":890,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/466\/revisions\/890"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=466"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}