{"id":490,"date":"2021-04-15T01:17:09","date_gmt":"2021-04-15T01:17:09","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/english.illinoisstate.edu\/euphemism\/16-2\/?page_id=490"},"modified":"2021-05-02T11:40:15","modified_gmt":"2021-05-02T11:40:15","slug":"lavender","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/lavender\/","title":{"rendered":"Lavender"},"content":{"rendered":"\r\n<h5 class=\"wp-block-heading\"><strong><span style=\"font-size: 12pt;\">Meghan Bennett<\/span><\/strong><\/h5>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I am trying to be more lavender, in the early hours<br \/>before daylight tries to make me harsh and gold,<br \/>too hard to look at when I want to be soft,<br \/>filtered and intangible and more like a dream<br \/>I pray I don\u2019t forget when night slinks away.<br \/>I ask why every song can\u2019t be called a lullaby<br \/>when I sing it quiet to myself in the shower,<br \/>as I ready for bed, asking myself to let me be lulled<br \/>so I can know what it\u2019s like to wake smiling.<br \/>Lavender like my sheets, my walls, the flowers<br \/>I\u2019ve stolen from the yard with apologies to the leaves<br \/>but I want my skin sewn of petals, my roots<br \/>to bend but be too wet to snap, the might of vulnerability,<br \/>of being so alive I\u2019m not afraid to be cut.<br \/>I can find my strength in new glass-bellied boats,<br \/>I can bring this sweetness to the next window, prove<br \/>the dawn is this color for a reason.<br \/>The day begins gentle. In the fade, it ends gentle, too.<br \/>I am trying to be more lavender with myself,<br \/>for the sake of flowers, unsorry in their brevity,<br \/>yet blooming<\/p>\r\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Meghan Bennett I am trying to be more lavender, in the early hoursbefore daylight tries to make me harsh and gold,too hard to look at when I want to be soft,filtered and intangible and more like a dreamI pray I don\u2019t forget when night slinks away.I ask why every song can\u2019t be called a lullabywhen&hellip; <a class=\"continue\" href=\"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/lavender\/\">Continue Reading Lavender<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":43,"featured_media":0,"parent":0,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-490","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/490","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/43"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=490"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/490\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":999,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/490\/revisions\/999"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/16-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=490"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}