Kathleen Levins
I watch him walk down the halls,
And now I know why he didn’t return my calls.
My heart sinks into my chest,
As I watch him love her the best.
She walks around like she’s as valuable as a pearl,
But really she’s just a desperate lonely teenage girl.
I turn away and begin to walk,
But to my surprise I hear a voice begin to talk.
I heard him calling out for me,
But I knew if he understood how much I missed him he wouldn’t agree.
He greets me with a friendly hey,
But I pretend I don’t hear him and walk away.
Our past begins to haunt my every bone,
I wish he would just leave me alone.
My mind wanders back to when he said we would always be,
He must have forgotten that when he was cheating on me.
I never imagined us being apart,
I guess I should choose more wisely in whom I trust with my heart.
I knew things would never be the same,
And I was tired of being a pawn in his little game.
My heart continued to pound,
But my eyes stared steadily at the ground.
My face felt hot and my cheeks turned bright red,
I faked a smile, but the racing thoughts were flying through my head.
As much as I wanted to tell him how I feel,
I promised myself I would keep my lips sealed.
I turned around staring right into his deceiving eyes,
Shit, I could never imagine myself with another guy.
As much as I wanted to cry, I held back the tears,
Just like I’ve been doing throughout all these years.
The words faded away in my mind and I didn’t know what to say,
So I did what I always did and acted like everything was OKAY.
My brain was screaming at my heart,
Trying to express the valid reasons we were better off apart.
My mind fought viciously to overrule what I was feeling,
And remind myself that I was still healing.
I continued to walk next to him like everything was fine,
But all the voices of the memories made me want him to be all mine.
As hard as I tried to keep in my emotions,
The shattering thoughts were causing an unbearable commotion.
Without thinking I told him everything I felt inside,
Throwing away my last bit of pride.
He told me he’s always loved me and has been holding on by a single thread,
And that the only reason he dated all those other girls was to get me out of his head.
Being the insecure teenage girl I am, I believed every word he said,
And in the end all the pain I’d been feeling only continued to spread.
So before I go, let me give you some advice,
Some people’s hearts are made of peer ice.
Love is simply a game,
And it’s calling your name.
He’ll say anything to get you to play,
But only the strongest people have the strength to walk away.
So let me leave you with this,
And trust me this part you don’t want to miss.
Always remember the reasons you’re better off apart,
And be careful when deciding who to trust with your heart.