{"id":566,"date":"2021-12-03T07:43:30","date_gmt":"2021-12-03T07:43:30","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/english.illinoisstate.edu\/euphemism\/17-1\/?page_id=566"},"modified":"2021-12-03T07:43:30","modified_gmt":"2021-12-03T07:43:30","slug":"my-apology-to-you","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/17-1\/my-apology-to-you\/","title":{"rendered":"My Apology to You"},"content":{"rendered":"
Jess Norris<\/h5>\n

How long had you suffered in the silence,<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

calling out for someone,<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

anyone, to hear you<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

to find you,\u00a0<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

enveloped in that darkness<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

alone?<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

The crying,<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

The fear,<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

The torment,<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

The pain,\u00a0<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

every sign you gave,<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

every sign they ignored.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

You saw no end to the nightmares,<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

to the whispers in your head.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

How did no one see?\u00a0<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Your demons became louder,<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

until one day the voices ceased,<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

and the quiet became deafening.\u00a0<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

When all hope was lost,<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

you suffocated in your terror, drowning in the unknown of tomorrow,<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

surrendering to the void.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Falling into an abyss of numbness<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

concealing your hurt,<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

your guilt,<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Yourself.\u00a0<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

This is my apology to you.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

To anyone who couldn\u2019t defeat their darkness,<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

to anyone who felt isolated when facing their demons.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry that no one heard your silence.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry you were alone.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

You aren\u2019t anymore.\u00a0<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry.\u00a0<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Jess Norris How long had you suffered in the silence,\u00a0 calling out for someone,\u00a0 anyone, to hear you\u00a0 to find you,\u00a0\u00a0 enveloped in that darkness\u00a0 alone?\u00a0 The crying,\u00a0 The fear,\u00a0 The torment,\u00a0 The pain,\u00a0\u00a0 every sign you gave,\u00a0 every sign they ignored.\u00a0 You saw no end to the nightmares,\u00a0 to the whispers in your head.\u00a0… <\/p>\n

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