Charlotte Steiger

everyday feels like yesterday

watching myself
grasping for control
consciousness regained by the power of my own will

dependency runs dependent on a source
on a body without a brain
a mind
a soul

when are you going to tell her you’re back

the pressure rises
orchestrating myself back within.
the sound of my heart tunnels-
we’re already falling behind

the evolution of my confusion ensues
frustration without resolvement
i find myself yearning for something i already have

it’s you
it’s always been you

with you it’s like i’m settling
in the midst of my own disintegration
i convince myself you’re not there anymore

look what you’ve done to me.

for everyday i choose patience
comes another day where i struggle to avoid my own demise

and without a moment’s intermission
i’m back where i first started

where everyday feels like yesterday