{"id":375,"date":"2022-04-08T00:23:27","date_gmt":"2022-04-08T00:23:27","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/english.illinoisstate.edu\/euphemism\/17-2\/?page_id=375"},"modified":"2022-04-25T03:55:22","modified_gmt":"2022-04-25T03:55:22","slug":"beautiful-emptiness","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/17-2\/poetry\/beautiful-emptiness\/","title":{"rendered":"Beautiful Emptiness"},"content":{"rendered":"<h5>Holly Day<\/h5>\n<p>I have spent too many nights<\/p>\n<p>pantomiming nightmares\u2014<\/p>\n<p>I will not sleep<\/p>\n<p>with her sweat on our sheets.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>We will not get through this.<\/p>\n<p>I am afraid to come home, afraid<\/p>\n<p>that there is nothing left to tie us together.<\/p>\n<p>I have spent too many nights listening to your breathing<\/p>\n<p>with her sweat on our sheets.<\/p>\n<p>You have me.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>There will be no songs between us.<\/p>\n<p>I have been drinking too many suicide songs<\/p>\n<p>in your name, dreaming of walking in on you, on her&#8211;<\/p>\n<p>we never existed.<\/p>\n<p>I have spent too many nights<\/p>\n<p>thinking of you to know<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>we will not get through this.<\/p>\n<p>Together, but only<\/p>\n<p>in my memory.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Holly Day I have spent too many nights pantomiming nightmares\u2014 I will not sleep with her sweat on our sheets. &nbsp; We will not get through this. I am afraid to come home, afraid that there is nothing left to tie us together. I have spent too many nights listening to your breathing with her [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":48,"featured_media":0,"parent":17,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-375","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry","clear"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/17-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/375","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/17-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/17-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/17-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/48"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/17-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=375"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/17-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/375\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":404,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/17-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/375\/revisions\/404"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/17-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/17"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/17-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=375"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}