{"id":186,"date":"2022-11-13T22:40:41","date_gmt":"2022-11-13T22:40:41","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/english.illinoisstate.edu\/euphemism\/18-1\/?page_id=186"},"modified":"2022-11-20T20:39:12","modified_gmt":"2022-11-20T20:39:12","slug":"pause-he-used-to","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/poetry\/pause-he-used-to\/","title":{"rendered":"pause\/ he used to"},"content":{"rendered":"
Cole Riggins<\/h5>\n

 <\/p>\n

he used to \/ pray to the stars \/ in his eyes<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

he used to \/ have stars \/ in his eyes<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003 \u2003 \u2003 he used to pray \/ to the missing \/ the forgotten<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003 \u2003 \u2003 in hopes \/ that one day \/ he\u2019d find what was gone<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

he hopes \/ that the stars \/ are real<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

he hopes \/ that constellations \/ can<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003 \u2003 \u2003 hope \/ too<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003 \u2003 \u2003 he paints \/ something \/ in the stars<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

he paints \/ and then \/ forgets all of it<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

he paints \/ lines \/ to connect<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003 \u2003 \u2003 himself \/ to the missing \/ the forgotten<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003 \u2003 \u2003 he \/ has lost \/ himself<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

in the stars \/ his head \/ in the clouds<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

in the stars \/ anxiety \/ arises<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003 \u2003 \u2003 he \/ doesn\u2019t \/ know<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003 \u2003 \u2003 he \/ doesn\u2019t \/ want<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

to know \/ \u2026 \/ what does he\u2026<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

to know \/ constellations \/ is to<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003 \u2003 \u2003 forget \/ oneself<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003 \u2003 \u2003 forget \/ who \/ you were<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

you aren\u2019t \/ who you \/ want<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

you aren\u2019t \/ who you \/ once knew<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003 \u2003 \u2003 stars \/ don\u2019t know<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003 \u2003 \u2003 stars \/ aren\u2019t you<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

you are \/ real<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

you are \/ eyes<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

stars \/ in your \/ eyes<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

stars \/ let them \/ see<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

you used to \/ be those \/ stars<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

you used to \/ be \/ free<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003 \u2003 \u2003 every bird lands \/ someday<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003 \u2003 \u2003 \u2003 you \/ can\u2019t see \/ stars<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003 \u2003 \u2003 \u2003 \u2003 \u2003\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0forever \/\/\/<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Cole Riggins   he used to \/ pray to the stars \/ in his eyes\u00a0 he used to \/ have stars \/ in his eyes\u00a0 \u2003 \u2003 \u2003 he used to pray \/ to the missing \/ the forgotten\u00a0 \u2003 \u2003 \u2003 in hopes \/ that one day \/ he\u2019d find what was gone\u00a0 he hopes \/ that the stars \/ are real\u00a0 he hopes \/ that constellations \/ can\u00a0 \u2003 \u2003 \u2003 hope \/ too\u00a0 \u2003 \u2003 \u2003 he paints \/ something \/ in the stars\u00a0 he paints \/ and then \/ forgets all of it\u00a0 he paints \/…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":40,"featured_media":0,"parent":32,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-186","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/186","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/40"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=186"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/186\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":224,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/186\/revisions\/224"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/32"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=186"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}