{"id":205,"date":"2022-11-13T22:34:50","date_gmt":"2022-11-13T22:34:50","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/english.illinoisstate.edu\/euphemism\/18-1\/?page_id=205"},"modified":"2022-11-20T22:16:19","modified_gmt":"2022-11-20T22:16:19","slug":"how-are-you-doing-there","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/poetry\/how-are-you-doing-there\/","title":{"rendered":"How are you doing there?"},"content":{"rendered":"
Anonymous<\/h5>\n

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I don’t know why I seem to fall apart here<\/p>\n

for at home, I feel so whole.<\/p>\n

My heart beats faster as the room fills<\/p>\n

I guess feeling empty takes its toll.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Everyone seems so happy here<\/p>\n

in thigh highs drunken with laughter.<\/p>\n

But I know I\u2019ll end up alone at night<\/p>\n

Sleeping soundly makes my time go faster.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

People really do love their liquor here<\/p>\n

I haven\u2019t sipped the devil’s juice but once.<\/p>\n

Girls stumble down steps before me<\/p>\n

\u201cWe\u2019re so fucked up\u201d<\/p>\n

Yet I\u2019m the dunce.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

I wander outside since that\u2019s peaceful here<\/p>\n

oddly feels normal to be seen alone.<\/p>\n

But the chill in the air creeps into my bones<\/p>\n

shoves me down and tells me to go.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

You really do seem to like it here<\/p>\n

I see you laugh and smile with those you know.<\/p>\n

I have nothing but my words and a prayer<\/p>\n

with love I don\u2019t know how to show.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

I doubt my dreams will come true here<\/p>\n

like I would be deserving enough at all.<\/p>\n

Life\u2019s a competitively broken board game<\/p>\n

seems all but the winner will fall.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

So, I\u2019ll continue falling apart here<\/p>\n

hoping someone can piece me together.<\/p>\n

Attempt to brave through what I cannot bear<\/p>\n

waiting and praying for the warmer weather.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Anonymous   I don’t know why I seem to fall apart here for at home, I feel so whole. My heart beats faster as the room fills I guess feeling empty takes its toll.   Everyone seems so happy here in thigh highs drunken with laughter. But I know I\u2019ll end up alone at night Sleeping soundly makes my time go faster.   People really do love their liquor here I haven\u2019t sipped the devil’s juice but once. Girls stumble down steps before me \u201cWe\u2019re so fucked up\u201d Yet I\u2019m the dunce.   I wander outside since that\u2019s peaceful here…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":65,"featured_media":0,"parent":32,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-205","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/205","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/65"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=205"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/205\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":625,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/205\/revisions\/625"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/32"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=205"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}