In life bread by comparison,<\/p>\n
How broken am I?<\/p>\n
Too far gone. Knew it.<\/p>\n
Believed only the weak could cry.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
When Mommy yells at Daddy,<\/p>\n
She says to \u2018kill yourself.\u2019<\/p>\n
I wonder what that really means.<\/p>\n
I go to bed all by myself.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Money seems to be fleeting.<\/p>\n
Broken lamps or bills and pay.<\/p>\n
Mommy threatens leaving,<\/p>\n
I wonder who will stay.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I spent my birthday all alone.<\/p>\n
Mom says it’s an \u2018IOU.\u2019<\/p>\n
She says that when she forgets things,<\/p>\n
I know it\u2019s never true.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I tell Mom I\u2019m not okay,<\/p>\n
She shrugs and says \u201coh well\u201d<\/p>\n
Calls me a freak if I need therapy.<\/p>\n
I do but I\u2019ll never tell.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
My brother has tried to die.<\/p>\n
I was scared to see him sick.<\/p>\n
I couldn\u2019t tell you why,<\/p>\n
My wonder soon died quick.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I panic about everything now.<\/p>\n
Mom says it\u2019s my own fault,<\/p>\n
How I\u2019ll never amount to anything,<\/p>\n
I focus solely on self-doubt.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Mom always yells at Dad,<\/p>\n
Still says to \u2018kill yourself.\u2019<\/p>\n
I know what that means now.<\/p>\n
Someday I\u2019ll be safe by myself.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Now I know I\u2019m fairly broken,<\/p>\n
The pieces of the past make sense,<\/p>\n
Left to fixate on all my problems<\/p>\n
Maybe solitude will let healing commence.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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