{"id":51,"date":"2022-11-06T20:18:20","date_gmt":"2022-11-06T20:18:20","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/english.illinoisstate.edu\/euphemism\/18-1\/?page_id=51"},"modified":"2022-12-07T17:47:35","modified_gmt":"2022-12-07T17:47:35","slug":"untitled","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/poetry\/untitled\/","title":{"rendered":"untitled"},"content":{"rendered":"<h5>Maia Huddleston<\/h5>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>turning over an old stone<\/p>\n<p>rumps and ridges, some sharp enough to cut through bone when my anemia sets in<\/p>\n<p>cold and unstable, the colors in the parking lot blend together like watercolors diluted<\/p>\n<p>i press two fingers to my chest and draw them up to my flaking lips<\/p>\n<p>blistering over the wounds from new years eve<\/p>\n<p>this is anew<\/p>\n<p>by the grace of god, this time will be different<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>walking through the aisles at Casey\u2019s on Main<\/p>\n<p>reeses cups and gummy worms, some sweet enough to hit a nerve when my anxiety sets in<\/p>\n<p>blurred and crying, the drinks inside the refrigerators melt into puddles of cane sugar and red #3<\/p>\n<p>i squeeze my eyes shut and hope it clears my altered vision<\/p>\n<p>pooling around the tears from this week\u2019s frustration<\/p>\n<p>this is anew<\/p>\n<p>by the grace of god, this time will be different<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>sitting in the corner booth<\/p>\n<p>playing games of tic-tac-toe and hangman, some close enough to break a bond when my ptsd sets in<\/p>\n<p>alert and unashamed, my amygdala tells me the exit is too far away<\/p>\n<p>i tap my thumb to my middle finger and take a deep breath<\/p>\n<p>letting my lungs hitch as i exhale<\/p>\n<p>this is anew<\/p>\n<p>by the grace of god, this time will be different<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Maia Huddleston &nbsp; turning over an old stone rumps and ridges, some sharp enough to cut through bone when my anemia sets in cold and unstable, the colors in the parking lot blend together like watercolors diluted i press two fingers to my chest and draw them up to my flaking lips blistering over the wounds from new years eve this is anew by the grace of god, this time will be different &nbsp; walking through the aisles at Casey\u2019s on Main reeses cups and gummy worms, some sweet enough to hit a nerve when my anxiety sets in blurred&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":46,"featured_media":0,"parent":32,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-51","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/51","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/46"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=51"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/51\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":900,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/51\/revisions\/900"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/32"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=51"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}