{"id":546,"date":"2022-11-17T18:12:22","date_gmt":"2022-11-17T18:12:22","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/english.illinoisstate.edu\/euphemism\/18-1\/?page_id=546"},"modified":"2022-11-17T18:12:22","modified_gmt":"2022-11-17T18:12:22","slug":"late-night-rumination","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/poetry\/late-night-rumination\/","title":{"rendered":"Late Night Rumination"},"content":{"rendered":"<h5>Tessa Renken<\/h5>\n<p>Last Night,<\/p>\n<p>for whatever reason,<\/p>\n<p>I could not fall asleep<\/p>\n<p>on either my right or left side<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>And so lay on my back,<\/p>\n<p>hands comfortably folded over top me,<\/p>\n<p>until the unspeakable dread befell me<\/p>\n<p>that this would be my death.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Me lying in my coffin,<\/p>\n<p>claustrophobic and immobile,<\/p>\n<p>supposedly at peace.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Immediately I turned over,<\/p>\n<p>but could not escape my thoughts<\/p>\n<p>that this fate awaits<\/p>\n<p>my parents and grandparents<\/p>\n<p>long before I\u2019m gone.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>And suddenly I saw myself<\/p>\n<p>in ten years or in twenty,<\/p>\n<p>sitting at my dining room table<\/p>\n<p>like my parents did before me<\/p>\n<p>surrounded by the bills and papers<\/p>\n<p>I never fathomed being secure enough<\/p>\n<p>to understand on my own.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Alone in that dim kitchen<\/p>\n<p>my head in my hands,<\/p>\n<p>I saw myself crying<\/p>\n<p>utterly alone.<\/p>\n<p>And I begin to understand<\/p>\n<p>the appeal of being married.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Tessa Renken Last Night, for whatever reason, I could not fall asleep on either my right or left side &nbsp; And so lay on my back, hands comfortably folded over top me, until the unspeakable dread befell me that this would be my death. &nbsp; Me lying in my coffin, claustrophobic and immobile, supposedly at peace. &nbsp; Immediately I turned over, but could not escape my thoughts that this fate awaits my parents and grandparents long before I\u2019m gone. &nbsp; And suddenly I saw myself in ten years or in twenty, sitting at my dining room table like my parents&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":59,"featured_media":0,"parent":32,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-546","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/546","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/59"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=546"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/546\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":547,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/546\/revisions\/547"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/32"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=546"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}