you said you needed space today and<\/span> \u201ci know this feeling is<\/span> on the left side of<\/span> when i feel someone is about<\/span> i saw a punching bag hang. i went<\/span> i threw a few right<\/span> the skin had flayed, knuckles cut, there was blood<\/span> \u201ci\u2019m a southpaw\u2014it catches the opponent<\/span> i eyed the scrapes.<\/span> Jarrod Sage you said you needed space today and i know it\u2019s bad to say but that scared me. i told myself\u00a0 \u201ci know this feeling is unhealthy,\u201d so i went to the gym to sweat out the anxiety. i know that my heart is\u00a0 on the left side of my body. i wonder what Read More<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":46,"featured_media":0,"parent":27,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-119","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/119","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/46"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=119"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/119\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":729,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/119\/revisions\/729"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/27"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=119"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
\n<\/span>i know it\u2019s bad to say but that<\/span>
\n<\/span>scared me. i told myself<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n
\n<\/span>unhealthy,\u201d so i went to<\/span>
\n<\/span>the gym to sweat out the<\/span>
\n<\/span>anxiety. i know that my heart is<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n
\n<\/span>my body. i wonder what flesh<\/span>
\n<\/span>fills the space opposite\u2014i think<\/span>
\n<\/span>about you all the time from<\/span>
\n<\/span>each half.\u00a0<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n
\n<\/span>to leave, i try to let that pass. i think<\/span>
\n<\/span>my way through, process the emotions<\/span>
\n<\/span>mentally, maybe save a few<\/span>
\n<\/span>hearts along the way from bursts<\/span>
\n<\/span>of electricity.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n
\n<\/span>up to it, but didn\u2019t bring gloves for<\/span>
\n<\/span>kickboxing with me\u2014i didn\u2019t feel\u00a0<\/span>
\n<\/span>like getting any.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n
\n<\/span>hooks, jabs, spun counterclock-<\/span>
\n<\/span>wise for a couple<\/span>
\n<\/span>shin kicks. i set a timer on<\/span>
\n<\/span>my phone for just over one<\/span>
\n<\/span>minute, got in stance. i<\/span>
\n<\/span>hit the bag over and<\/span>
\n<\/span>over without stopping.\u00a0<\/span>
\n<\/span>when the alarm clattered out, i ceased, drank<\/span>
\n<\/span>some water, felt my right<\/span>
\n<\/span>hand throbbing.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n
\n<\/span>staining\u00a0<\/span>
\n<\/span>between my ring and right<\/span>
\n<\/span>pinky. i used to spar and train with<\/span>
\n<\/span>a friend who would always tell me<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n
\n<\/span>off guard,\u201d<\/span>
\n<\/span>he would hit a bag in his garage<\/span>
\n<\/span>without gloves, impulsively<\/span>
\n<\/span>leaving his hand bruised, unloved, his wrist<\/span>
\n<\/span>sprained, usually hidden inside<\/span>
\n<\/span>wrapping tape.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n
\n<\/span>i felt that\u2014if i\u2019m going to keep<\/span>
\n<\/span>playing\u2014then one of<\/span>
\n<\/span>these hands is always going to end up<\/span>
\n<\/span>bloody.\u00a0<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"