{"id":140,"date":"2023-04-24T23:11:52","date_gmt":"2023-04-24T23:11:52","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/english.illinoisstate.edu\/euphemism\/18-2\/?page_id=140"},"modified":"2023-04-24T23:11:52","modified_gmt":"2023-04-24T23:11:52","slug":"reflections","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/poetry\/reflections\/","title":{"rendered":"Reflections"},"content":{"rendered":"
Benjamin Rodriguez<\/h5>\n

as we bend to \u2018the motions\u2019, wound up on inner peace<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

another me lies there, a puddle of a person<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003\u2003\u2003 I stand around to watch the day change to night,<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003\u2003\u2003 my eyes flashing silver, glaucoma of the mind, body, and soul<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

our voice splits now and then, floundering tonality<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

you could feel sink into your throat, 16 reminders<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003\u2003\u2003 of the first time I had hands with someone<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003\u2003\u2003 they got mad at me for being clammy<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

15 reminders that you\u2019ll never forget how your hands looked around her<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

14 reminders that you got in trouble for wearing a flower crown and that\u2019s why you hate roses<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

13 reminders that your voice will never sound the same<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003\u2003\u2003\u2003\u2003\u2003\u2003\u2003\u2002\u00a0\u00a0 I<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003\u2003\u2003\u2003\u2003\u2003\u2003\u2003\u2002\u00a0am<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003\u2003\u2003\u2003\u2003\u2003\u2003\u2003 stone<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003\u2003\u2003\u00a0\u00a0 essential, bedrock, epitome<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003\u2003\u2002 of being in the middle of fire, eating rocks<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

even if they burn, had a cat named \u201cCole\u201d, capitalized,<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

my heart is beating on the sidewalk, sometime in the afternoon<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

the sun kicked me down, stole my balance, and I erupted into\u00a0<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003\u2003\u2003\u2003\u2003\u2003\u2003\u2003\u00a0 Myself.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003\u2003\u2002 I didn\u2019t stop screaming for 3 days and 3 nights<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003\u2003\u2002 I thought it would have brought me peace<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003\u2003\u2002 in the evening, our last day<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003\u2003\u2002 felt like it would never end, so I shut my eyes,<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003\u2003\u2002 my heart, my body, my focus, my being in space<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u2003\u2003\u2002 I see it all drifting away<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Benjamin Rodriguez as we bend to \u2018the motions\u2019, wound up on inner peace\u00a0 another me lies there, a puddle of a person\u00a0 \u2003\u2003\u2003 I stand around to watch the day change to night,\u00a0 \u2003\u2003\u2003 my eyes flashing silver, glaucoma of the mind, body, and soul\u00a0 our voice splits now and then, floundering tonality\u00a0 you could Read More<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":46,"featured_media":0,"parent":27,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-140","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/140","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/46"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=140"}],"version-history":[{"count":13,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/140\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":167,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/140\/revisions\/167"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/27"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=140"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}