Oh, my heart overwhelms me, my Lord. People keep confiding their relationship struggles to me.<\/span> And you let me panic.<\/span> But I cannot let <\/span>myself<\/span><\/i> sink<\/span> The joy<\/span> They will be like me a sparkle<\/span> May you calm ever present sense of joy let me not panic.<\/span> Leah B. Eben Oh, my heart overwhelms me, my Lord. All of my feelings infiltrate my brain to spar to the death. Somehow, I find in a silent war that I start to panic. With my hands raised to the ceiling and my tears falling to the floor, I find joy. Letting the solute of Read More<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":45,"featured_media":0,"parent":27,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-160","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/160","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/45"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=160"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/160\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":810,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/160\/revisions\/810"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/27"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=160"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
\n<\/span>All of my feelings infiltrate my brain to spar
\n<\/span>to the death. Somehow, I find in a silent war that I start to panic.<\/span>
\n<\/span>With my hands raised to the ceiling and my tears falling to the floor, I find joy.<\/span>
\n<\/span>Letting the solute of fear settle for once. I sink<\/span>
\n<\/span>my knees to the ground, my head to my knees. You hold me.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n
\nT<\/span>hey build until I notice the burden on my shoulders, Lord.<\/span>
\n<\/span>Let the dark thoughts of abandonment be washed in the sink.<\/span>
\n<\/span>For in the darkness there is always a spark<\/span>
\n<\/span>that is, you. You are the essence of joy.\u00a0<\/span>
\n<\/span>I understand that, yet my brain only lets me panic<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n
\n<\/span>For you know I will rest on you instead of me.<\/span>
\n<\/span>I will rely upon those around. They will join<\/span>
\n<\/span>in my prayers and point to the Lord.<\/span>
\n<\/span>They stop the spar-<\/span>
\n<\/span>ring in my ear as I let the thoughts settle and sink<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n
\n<\/span>again, into the mind splitting body freezing panic
\n<\/span>that I used to when my soul was too shattered to spar.<\/span>
\n<\/span>Please just give me<\/span>
\n<\/span>ways to rest and ways back to you Lord.\u00a0<\/span>
\n<\/span>Only in you will I solidify my joy.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n
\n<\/span>you give does not simply drain down the sink<\/span>
\n<\/span>It fills, floods, and spills out, effectively yet harmless, Lord.<\/span>
\n<\/span>So those around who feel panicked,<\/span>
\n<\/span>calm because of you through me<\/span>
\n<\/span>for right now they will not spar.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n
\n<\/span>Of light in the barren land fueled by your joy.<\/span>
\n<\/span>I am solid ice versus the vaporous gas that used to be me.<\/span>
\n<\/span>Yet with you I will not sink.<\/span>
\n<\/span>So, I do not plunge into panic,
\n<\/span>in the future I will go to you, Lord.<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n
\n<\/span>The spark of your life will help me not sink.<\/span>
\n<\/span>Oh Lord, I just pray for your presence near me<\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"