I am constantly mourning the little girl I used to be.
\nI carry her with me wherever I go,
\nand I don\u2019t think it\u2019s so true that I am not her
\nas it is that she
\nwas a version of myself which was pure me incarnate.
\nFull of hope and joy and recklessness.<\/p>\n
I am not her and I mourn her,
\nyet I am her and forever will be.
\nI am the in betweenthe everything of my experience.
\nI wholly know I am a part of woman;
\nI know Her aches and pains,
\nI thrum with the very nature of Womanhood.<\/p>\n
And yet I feel a disconnect.
\nNot that I am Woman
\nbut that a woman is whatever I make it to be
\nwhatever I am.<\/p>\n
I am a<\/em> woman, Nor am I Man, I am myself, I am not Man My womanhood is not defined by you as a viewer, I am also other. Do not look at me and say, Instead drink me in and say, Tessa Renken I am constantly mourning the little girl I used to be. I carry her with me wherever I go, and I don\u2019t think it\u2019s so true that I am not her as it is that she was a version of myself which was pure me incarnate. Full of hope and joy and recklessness. Read More<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":63,"featured_media":0,"parent":27,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-75","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/75","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/63"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=75"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/75\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":682,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/75\/revisions\/682"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/27"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=75"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
\nbut I feel my form does not align with my spirit.<\/p>\n
\nthough I find myself at times resonating with that creature.<\/p>\n
\nan entity I fear may never match my face or this world
\nbut feels more strong to me than any face could.
\nI am ineffable and shifting,
\nI am me.<\/p>\n
\nbut I am not without man
\nI am woman,
\nbut I am independent of what you view as a woman.<\/p>\n
\nbut by whatever I am.
\nYet I am not solely a woman.<\/p>\n
\nNot a contrast to femininity,
\nbut a statement to my nature.<\/p>\n
\n\u201cThat is a woman, take her example.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cGod, how free they are.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"