{"id":88,"date":"2023-04-23T15:47:49","date_gmt":"2023-04-23T15:47:49","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/english.illinoisstate.edu\/euphemism\/18-2\/?page_id=88"},"modified":"2023-05-01T15:03:54","modified_gmt":"2023-05-01T15:03:54","slug":"disorganized-religion","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/18-2\/poetry\/disorganized-religion\/","title":{"rendered":"Disorganized Religion"},"content":{"rendered":"<h5>Sofia Link<\/h5>\n<p><span data-contrast=\"auto\">I grew up with a religious mother, and a father that obeyed my mother\u2019s wishes.<\/span><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span data-contrast=\"auto\">Church was top priority,<\/span><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\"><br \/>\n<\/span><span data-contrast=\"auto\">Expect the times when my brother would have a little league game on Sunday mornings.\u00a0<\/span><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span data-contrast=\"auto\">Us \u201choly\u201d Lutherans would collect coats and hats and gloves for the homeless,<\/span><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\"><br \/>\n<\/span><span data-contrast=\"auto\">But the older women would clutch their purses and give merciless stares when an unshaven man who carried his belongings in his bag,<\/span><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\"><br \/>\n<\/span><span data-contrast=\"auto\">Would show up to service.<\/span><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span data-contrast=\"auto\">I sang songs about love and unity,<\/span><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\"><br \/>\n<\/span><span data-contrast=\"auto\">But was told by my Sunday School teacher,<\/span><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\"><br \/>\n<\/span><span data-contrast=\"auto\">That gay people needed to find Jesus.<\/span><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span data-contrast=\"auto\">I would sip on a juice box while watching a 90s VHR tape about pro-life propaganda bullshit.<\/span><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\"><br \/>\n<\/span><span data-contrast=\"auto\">The confirmation class was separated by sex for a reason.<\/span><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\"><br \/>\n<\/span><span data-contrast=\"auto\">It was so our pastor could preach to 11-year-old girls about how abstinence is our only birth-control option.<\/span><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span data-contrast=\"auto\">I was young and obedient at the time,<\/span><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\"><br \/>\n<\/span><span data-contrast=\"auto\">And angry at my father for falling asleep during the sermon.<\/span><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\">\u00a0<\/span><span data-contrast=\"auto\">Why wasn\u2019t he afraid of eternal damnation?<\/span><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span data-contrast=\"auto\">The stained glass crucified Jesus I spent 15 years of my life staring at,<\/span><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\"><br \/>\n<\/span><span data-contrast=\"auto\">Was the first image that crept into my mind when a boy put his hands between my thighs. <\/span><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span data-contrast=\"auto\">It took public high school and partial maturation of my prefrontal cortex,\u00a0<\/span><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\"><br \/>\n<\/span><span data-contrast=\"auto\">To realize that church was not the place for me.<\/span><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\">\u00a0<\/span><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span data-contrast=\"auto\">I don\u2019t want to take communion with people that use racial slurs on social media,<\/span><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\"><br \/>\n<\/span><span data-contrast=\"auto\">Nor would I like to follow an outdated misogynistic, and homophobic institution,<\/span><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\"><br \/>\n<\/span><span data-contrast=\"auto\">With a white savior complex.<\/span><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span data-contrast=\"auto\">To make this generalization about Christianity and all churches would be ignorant\u2026\u00a0<\/span><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\"><br \/>\n<\/span><span data-contrast=\"auto\">I don\u2019t blame my mom for taking us to church,<\/span><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\"><br \/>\n<\/span><span data-contrast=\"auto\">Now I just understand why my dad would sneak us out of Sunday School to get breakfast instead.<\/span><span data-ccp-props=\"{&quot;201341983&quot;:0,&quot;335559740&quot;:276}\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Sofia Link I grew up with a religious mother, and a father that obeyed my mother\u2019s wishes.\u00a0 Church was top priority, Expect the times when my brother would have a little league game on Sunday mornings.\u00a0\u00a0 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