Samsara

James Friedman

If I died in a distant land

The leaves would sweep me up

I would be reborn again

To follow you, wherever you go

And I’d wait for you to open up the door

 

You floor me so

The more and more I know you

That blue feeling retreats

To somewhere far undertow

And sure I’d like to reach the light

But I fear any afterlife

above or below, I couldn’t be long

If you weren’t there to make it home

 

And if I’d lived

A second more

That in death I’d have no memories

Linger from my life before

The day I met you I was reborn

And I’d die a thousand times

Never forgotten, or alone

And yet for all the tears we cry

For although we’ve felt forlorn

Even a scent or tincture of you

Is a reason to be born

In the sand or in the sky

Wherever God is breathing life

Forever those churning nebulae

Who for a thousand years and more have formed our outlines

below the stars

and mirrored upwards evermore

Yet In the face of pooling dread

The brink of never-ending death

I wouldn’t falter from what I’ve sworn

I would choose you again instead

 

And if in your eyes I looked for the last time

With no lifeline ahead of me

The end of Earth and of all things

Every single star to ever be

I’d see then a fuller hue, laying deep inside of you

The kind that gaseous light burned for eons to produce

So when your heart finds its trust

And when the hate is let loose

When the sadness leaves us

And all traces of who we were are scarce

Well

It was enough

My love

 

They tell me to find god

But to hold on I had to decide I wasn’t alone

So I blindly flung myself into what was keeping me alive

Love is the name of the thing unquestioningly

for which I would die

Likewise I decide I live once, thrice, or 400 times

From the first birth to the last stroke of the sun slicing the Earth

I would rather smoke line the horizon than be buried cold in the dirt

Every word is a war waged against hatred and the dark

Her arms are so warm, more than passion they remind me who we are

Our names will last into the abyss that swallows the stars however bright

Our love will last into the absence

And wound the dark with scar light