{"id":357,"date":"2023-12-07T03:04:20","date_gmt":"2023-12-07T03:04:20","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/english.illinoisstate.edu\/euphemism\/19-1\/?page_id=357"},"modified":"2023-12-07T22:05:16","modified_gmt":"2023-12-07T22:05:16","slug":"how-quickly-love-turns-into-hate","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/19-1\/poetry\/how-quickly-love-turns-into-hate\/","title":{"rendered":"How Quickly Love Turns into Hate"},"content":{"rendered":"<h5>Ryley Clarke<\/h5>\n<div class=\"page\" title=\"Page 1\">\n<div class=\"layoutArea\">\n<div class=\"column\">\n<p>How quickly love turns into hate<br \/>\nIf you ever questioned how much I loved you,<br \/>\nonly look at how much I despise you now.<br \/>\nI grasp at the straws you feed me as if a depraved horse.<br \/>\nI beg of you farm boy<br \/>\ntake off my saddle<br \/>\nand let me run free of your weight.<br \/>\nOf your whippings<br \/>\nOh to love so intensely welcomes the risk to hate even more.<br \/>\nWhy?<br \/>\nHad I not deserved the world as you once thought?<br \/>\nAre your flowers once gifted to me out of love now as gifts of a treaty?<br \/>\nThey carry no sorrys,<br \/>\nmaybe even no love.<br \/>\n\u201cLet us not fight, until my petals wither into the color brown\u201d<br \/>\nthe flowers speak.<br \/>\nYet each time the flowers die,<br \/>\nI die with them.<br \/>\nA living corpse,<br \/>\nI am with less love to offer you after each death.<br \/>\nMy love for you taking the size of a bug when once it was a gentle giant.<br \/>\nAnd when I am,<br \/>\nin default,<br \/>\ndisappointed once again,<br \/>\nI reach for my hammer to smash the helpless thing.<br \/>\nIn a rage<br \/>\nI smash, smash, smash at the little insect until it shrinks smaller and smaller &#8211;<br \/>\ntime is running out.<br \/>\nMy blood has turned so sour even the carnivores cringe at its scent.<br \/>\nLittle birds peck at my brain mimicking my voice.<br \/>\n\u201cWhat would have happened if I never met you?\u201d<br \/>\nthe voices taunt.<br \/>\nDay and night they bicker to me.<br \/>\nMaybe I shall put on the chains I have grown accustomed to so you can see the weight I carry. Maybe I shall scream and cry as I so desperately needed to so many times before.<br \/>\nMaybe then you will realize what you have done to me.<br \/>\nPlease.<br \/>\nLet me love you again.<br \/>\nPlease. Please. Please. Please. Please.<br \/>\nDon\u2019t you miss being loved?<br \/>\nDon\u2019t you miss being loved?<br \/>\nMother Mary has listened too long and grown too familiar with my voice.<br \/>\nI have become sick of begging, bargaining, praying.<br \/>\nA thief you are, stealing parts of me and hiding them too well.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"page\" title=\"Page 2\">\n<div class=\"layoutArea\">\n<div class=\"column\">\n<p>Dig them up!<br \/>\nYou are the torture device specifically designed for me. You have broken me and you have failed to break me. Either way, you remain cruel.<br \/>\nMy will runs on fumes now.<br \/>\nOpen your eyes and look at what you have done.<\/p>\n<p>I yearn for all of that you have taken from me.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Ryley Clarke How quickly love turns into hate If you ever questioned how much I loved you, only look at how much I despise you now. I grasp at the straws you feed me as if a depraved horse. I beg of you farm boy take off my saddle and let me run free of &hellip; <\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a href=\"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/19-1\/poetry\/how-quickly-love-turns-into-hate\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;How Quickly Love Turns into Hate&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":50,"featured_media":0,"parent":11,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-357","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/19-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/357","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/19-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/19-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/19-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/50"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/19-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=357"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/19-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/357\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":361,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/19-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/357\/revisions\/361"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/19-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/11"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/19-1\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=357"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}