{"id":408,"date":"2023-12-07T22:51:23","date_gmt":"2023-12-07T22:51:23","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/english.illinoisstate.edu\/euphemism\/19-1\/?page_id=408"},"modified":"2023-12-07T22:52:28","modified_gmt":"2023-12-07T22:52:28","slug":"i-am-suppose-to-hate-you","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/19-1\/poetry\/i-am-suppose-to-hate-you\/","title":{"rendered":"I Am Suppose to Hate You"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Riley Clarke<\/h5>\n

I am supposed to hate you. My mother said so.<\/p>\n

Some say Hate only follows where Love has already touched.
\nIf this theory is the truth then one can question if I did love you for I do not hate you now. Can it be possible that Cupid’s arrow merely skimmed my flesh?
\nOr have I proved this philosophy to be false?
\n\u201chate is to love as love is to hate\u201d
\nthe theorists will say.
\nNo.
\nlove is to love.
\nThat is simply it.
\nTo feel the warmth from someone else\u2019s smile does not open the door to despise that smile all the same.
\nUNDERSTAND
\nLove has no other agenda than loving.
\nIt is us with our human minds that give in to the sickness of vile thoughts.
\nIt is this illness that ages us.
\nThat shrivels our brains and our bodies.
\nIt is our love that separates us from the animals and our hatred that separates us from the angels.
\nA balance defined as humanity.
\nI too am a victim of our sickness.
\nYet I do not hate you although I do not deny the accusation of cursing your good name.
\nBut I free those curses from my body too hastily to let them be hate.
\nThat is defined as only anger.
\nHatred is too deeply committed to a person to leave in such a hurry.
\nYou have jabbed, poked holes in my heart.
\nTo love is to love.
\nI do not know how many leaks in my chest there would have to be for me to stop caring for you.
\nFor I have no control over where my love journeys to and where it stays.
\nMy love may never leave.
\nIt has found a nice hammock to sway on and rest.
\nStay, Love.
\nSleep your days away peacefully undisrupted.
\nBy your name, Fool, Love will sleep.
\nBut I cannot keep my heart from longing for the day She might awaken.
\nMy heart may grow desperate even dangerously so.
\nIt may set alarms near the hammocks in attempts to stir Love awake.
\nIt may scream in Love\u2019s ears or shake her shoulders so hopelessly.
\nBut my mind, my limbs, my hair, my teeth, my veins, my freckles,
\nwill be there too protecting the slumber for it knows to let Love sleep.
\nEach fiber in my body protecting my love for you, Fool
\nexcept for my heart who craves much more than that.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n

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The heart can be foolish at times.
\nLet me love you restfully and from afar. That way I am okay.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Riley Clarke I am supposed to hate you. My mother said so. Some say Hate only follows where Love has already touched. If this theory is the truth then one can question if I did love you for I do not hate you now. Can it be possible that Cupid’s arrow merely skimmed my flesh? … <\/p>\n

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