GROWING PAINS

By John Grey

When the bullet hit, 

it shocked me  

like it was lightning  

out of the sky, 

not a Glock from the window  

of a car driving by. 

 

I clutched my chest 

and my knees buckled 

but I didn’t fall, 

not when I’d been  

standing outside 

the bike shop, 

where I’d been staring  

in the window 

wondering how I could  

get my hands on a ten-speed. 

 

My chest was gushing blood like oil 

but I stumbled away, 

toward the tenement where Michelle lived, 

not because I figured 

she could do anything to help 

but so she’d realize I was old 

enough to be shot, 

and not some kid who’d rather have a bike 

than his hands around a girl. 

 

I crawled my way 

to her address in the end, 

staining the sidewalk, 

head spinning in and out 

of consciousness. 

 

Someone called the rescue 

and I survived. 

Michelle was staying  

at her aunt’s, I heard later. 

Never saw me sprawled  

across the stoop. 

So I almost died in vain. 

Then I lived in vain. 

I never had a bike. 

And another kid got shot just after.