Celibate

Alyssa Buckner

He touched me and it felt so warm within

He asks so many times, and I have to say no again

I can see it in his eyes, he wants to cross through all the lines

And I have to sit there questioning every damn time

Please tell me you love me, so I know it’s not a game

But tell me you love me it’ll put me more in shame

Because people who love people are supposed to want to love

But in my mind I’m scared nothing’s good enough

He told me he was happy seeing all of my skin

As if saying it makes it feel much less like a sin

Through daydreams and lonely nights, I don’t know what’s the matter

Because every time he asks, my entire world is shattered