{"id":337,"date":"2026-04-29T22:07:31","date_gmt":"2026-04-29T22:07:31","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/21-2\/?page_id=337"},"modified":"2026-04-29T22:08:22","modified_gmt":"2026-04-29T22:08:22","slug":"burn-out","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/21-2\/poetry\/burn-out\/","title":{"rendered":"Burn Out"},"content":{"rendered":"

Alyssa Buckner<\/span><\/h1>\n

Have that sweet sugar tongue that always turns sour<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019m burning my skin while I stand in the shower<\/span><\/p>\n

There\u2019s a boy in Colorado I wish gave a fuck<\/span><\/p>\n

While I\u2019m thinking about my first love and how I wasn\u2019t enough<\/span><\/p>\n

It\u2019s like my heart tried to smuggle in contraband<\/span><\/p>\n

It got me addicted to the point I can\u2019t stand<\/span><\/p>\n

I want to love deeply, but all I can do<\/span><\/p>\n

Is accept the porn-crazed and the heartlessness too<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019m selling my life, it\u2019s all up for grabs<\/span><\/p>\n

But who wants a life that makes you feel trapped<\/span><\/p>\n

I bite the hand that feeds me<\/span><\/p>\n

Then succumb to the hell that has me glued to the T.V.<\/span><\/p>\n

I tried to believe in God, believe me, I tried<\/span><\/p>\n

But the thought of his love doesn\u2019t seem right<\/span><\/p>\n

To everyone else I have nothing hanging onto my shoulders<\/span><\/p>\n

But the voices get louder the more I get older<\/span><\/p>\n

They have my embarrassment and shame attached at their sides<\/span><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t know where they came from but I\u2019m where they reside<\/span><\/p>\n

I want to show anger, but it won\u2019t even matter<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019ll just be \u201cdramatic\u201d and fall back into my pattern<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019ll lay on my carpet, stare at the lights ’til I\u2019m blind<\/span><\/p>\n

Then I\u2019ll remind myself that I\u2019m alive so I\u2019m fine<\/span><\/p>\n

I miss using the lighter<\/span><\/p>\n

I miss my soul being a fighter<\/span><\/p>\n

And I can\u2019t believe that I want to return<\/span><\/p>\n

To the place where I was when I constantly hurt<\/span><\/p>\n

When there was a boy who loved me but never cared<\/span><\/p>\n

His hand in my jeans, on the hem of my underwear<\/span><\/p>\n

Hiding the hate because I wasn\u2019t alone<\/span><\/p>\n

Now I\u2019m starting to think I\u2019ve lost all of my goals<\/span><\/p>\n

Burning slow<\/span><\/p>\n

Blistered and I\u2019m broke<\/span><\/p>\n

But every fire goes<\/span><\/p>\n

Out<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Alyssa Buckner Have that sweet sugar tongue that always turns sour I\u2019m burning my skin while I stand in the shower There\u2019s a boy in Colorado I wish gave a fuck While I\u2019m thinking about my first love and how I wasn\u2019t enough It\u2019s like my heart tried to smuggle in contraband It got me… <\/p>\n

Read more Burn Out<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":83,"featured_media":0,"parent":21,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"elementor_theme","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-337","page","type-page","status-publish","entry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/21-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/337","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/21-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/21-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/21-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/83"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/21-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=337"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/21-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/337\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":339,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/21-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/337\/revisions\/339"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/21-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/21"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/21-2\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=337"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}