{"id":341,"date":"2026-04-29T22:08:49","date_gmt":"2026-04-29T22:08:49","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/21-2\/?page_id=341"},"modified":"2026-04-29T22:08:49","modified_gmt":"2026-04-29T22:08:49","slug":"celibate","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/21-2\/poetry\/celibate\/","title":{"rendered":"Celibate"},"content":{"rendered":"

Alyssa Buckner<\/span><\/h1>\n

He touched me and it felt so warm within<\/span><\/p>\n

He asks so many times, and I have to say no again<\/span><\/p>\n

I can see it in his eyes, he wants to cross through all the lines<\/span><\/p>\n

And I\u00a0have to\u00a0sit there questioning every damn time<\/span><\/p>\n

Please tell me you love me, so I know\u00a0it\u2019s\u00a0not a game<\/span><\/p>\n

But tell me you love me\u00a0it\u2019ll\u00a0put me more in shame<\/span><\/p>\n

Because people who love people are supposed to want to love<\/span><\/p>\n

But in my\u00a0mind\u00a0I\u2019m\u00a0scared\u00a0nothing\u2019s\u00a0good enough<\/span><\/p>\n

He told me he was happy seeing\u00a0all of\u00a0my skin<\/span><\/p>\n

As if saying it makes it feel much less like a sin<\/span><\/p>\n

Through daydreams and lonely nights, I\u00a0don\u2019t\u00a0know\u00a0what\u2019s\u00a0the matter<\/span><\/p>\n

Because every time he asks, my entire world is shattered<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Alyssa Buckner He touched me and it felt so warm within He asks so many times, and I have to say no again I can see it in his eyes, he wants to cross through all the lines And I\u00a0have to\u00a0sit there questioning every damn time Please tell me you love me, so I know\u00a0it\u2019s\u00a0not… <\/p>\n

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