{"id":346,"date":"2026-04-29T22:12:07","date_gmt":"2026-04-29T22:12:07","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/21-2\/?page_id=346"},"modified":"2026-04-29T22:12:07","modified_gmt":"2026-04-29T22:12:07","slug":"she-is-devastation","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/euphemism.illinoisstate.edu\/21-2\/poetry\/she-is-devastation\/","title":{"rendered":"She Is Devastation"},"content":{"rendered":"

Alyssa Buckner<\/span><\/h1>\n

The girl that lives inside of me is like dynamite<\/span><\/p>\n

She\u2019s loud and destructive and she is not safe<\/span><\/p>\n

She mocks me for biting my tongue because I must love how it tastes<\/span><\/p>\n

Her eyes forever bloodshot<\/span><\/p>\n

She\u2019s crying mascara she never gets to wear<\/span><\/p>\n

She feels the hands on my skin and starts tearing out chucks of her hair<\/span><\/p>\n

She\u2019s hysteric and tortured<\/span><\/p>\n

She hears voices in the caves of my head<\/span><\/p>\n

She screams at them to shut up but ends up screaming at me instead<\/span><\/p>\n

I hear her beg from her chains<\/span><\/p>\n

As she watches me let rationality walk away<\/span><\/p>\n

She slams her fists into my walls because she knows I won\u2019t ask him to stay<\/span><\/p>\n

I feel the warmth of her blood<\/span><\/p>\n

She watches it drip onto the floor<\/span><\/p>\n

My heart cracks as she cries because she doesn\u2019t know what she is anymore<\/span><\/p>\n

Her voice is suddenly quiet<\/span><\/p>\n

She sits with me curled up into a ball<\/span><\/p>\n

I can see from the look in her eyes that we\u2019re about to withdraw<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Alyssa Buckner The girl that lives inside of me is like dynamite She\u2019s loud and destructive and she is not safe She mocks me for biting my tongue because I must love how it tastes Her eyes forever bloodshot She\u2019s crying mascara she never gets to wear She feels the hands on my skin and… <\/p>\n

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