two cream three sugar

by Nick Roberts

saturday morning probably 2010 or some shit 
wake up early get dressed some fuckin name brand shirt & matching jacket most likely  
too small too tight on my chest but that’s how i liked to wear it for some reason 
waking up early seems absolutely ridiculous now but waking up early then meant 
going to breakfast with my dad & sister 
i don’t remember much but i do remember “alaskan waffles” big fluffy waffles with 
fruit & ice cream & syrup makes me sick to think now but then i’d eat the whole thing & 
not think anything of it waking up early meant needing coffee & i went through this phase when i 
first started drinking it where i absolutely hated it but i  
drank it because it was cool to drink it it was cool like my dad because back
then my dad was cool    
i remember not even knowing how to drink it properly how much sugar & cream to put in i’d 
turn the whole thing whiter than the snow outside in the bed of the truck but my dad was so cool 
taught me to put two cream three sugar in every cup & stir with a spoon not a stirrer for some reason 
it would be like six am on a sunday morning in december & my dad
& i would be drinking coffee together something i can still do today but now i  
still drink cream with two cream three sugar but everyone is a stranger just like strangers  
sitting at the bar in the restaurant eating their omelets & hashbrowns but
instead i 
fucking cooked them their hashbrowns & no one said thank you so now i 
sit in the booth alone stirring my coffee with 
two cream &  three fucking  
sugar