Anonymous
In life bread by comparison,
How broken am I?
Too far gone. Knew it.
Believed only the weak could cry.
When Mommy yells at Daddy,
She says to ‘kill yourself.’
I wonder what that really means.
I go to bed all by myself.
Money seems to be fleeting.
Broken lamps or bills and pay.
Mommy threatens leaving,
I wonder who will stay.
I spent my birthday all alone.
Mom says it’s an ‘IOU.’
She says that when she forgets things,
I know it’s never true.
I tell Mom I’m not okay,
She shrugs and says “oh well”
Calls me a freak if I need therapy.
I do but I’ll never tell.
My brother has tried to die.
I was scared to see him sick.
I couldn’t tell you why,
My wonder soon died quick.
I panic about everything now.
Mom says it’s my own fault,
How I’ll never amount to anything,
I focus solely on self-doubt.
Mom always yells at Dad,
Still says to ‘kill yourself.’
I know what that means now.
Someday I’ll be safe by myself.
Now I know I’m fairly broken,
The pieces of the past make sense,
Left to fixate on all my problems
Maybe solitude will let healing commence.