paperweight

Maia Huddleston

 

i spent twenty one years training for a best friend i couldn’t lose

she still seems so far away

 

my maid of honor will not return the favor

she will be lovely yet loyal to the roots she grew in adolescence

while i danced along the wind like maple seeds

clinging to a moving current, hitting the pavement where it failed

 

it’s a paperweight sort of sad i hold in my palms from time to time

 

it’s a post-therapy conflict, not pressing but present

always whispering in my ear through the tipsy game of telephone we play at midnight

asking if i will find her in time, if i will ever